As one door closes, another one opens

I can finally say that I graduated high school! 

What a journey it has been! There have been a lot of ups and i’ve had my fair share of downs, but I am more than ready to move on and start a new chapter of my life.

Looking back, I am quite proud of the person that i’ve grown into since 2009. Since then I learnt how to straighten my hair (thank every higher being), I no longer wear Dunlop Volleys (I re-purchased them one too many times) and I finally got around to throwing out my Noexss tracksuit pants that I bought when I was 11. Now aesthetically, these are all great achievements, but I’ve also managed to become the person that I want to be. Yes, this person is flawed, I know it, but I’ve been able to recognise my flaws and therefore work on them. I can’t guarantee that I won’t sleep in on Sundays or that I’m not going to pretend to text someone while i’m in an awkward situation, but I can try!

This year has been an insane emotional roller coaster, and I can honestly say that the bad has outweighed the good, but at times the good did succumb the sad realities of the bad. All of that aside, the pressures of VCE are extremely high, and at times I forget why and think “this is ridiculous”. The way I see it is that if you really are determined to have a certain career, you can do it what ever the circumstances, because if it’s a dream and something that you’re passionate about, you’ll have the motivation to achieve it, no matter what. Yes, exams are very important, and you have endured 13 years of school, so why give up when you only have a few weeks left? No one knows what will happen in 3 months time, so what happens if you stopped trying and in a few months decide to do something that requires an ATAR score, and then can’t do it because at the time you couldn’t be bothered? This is something that runs through my head every.single.day and i’m getting frustrated because i’ve become numb to all feelings about exams. The good thing about that is that i’m not stressed, the bad thing is that the importance of  these exams hasn’t hit me yet and my first exam is in 7 days from today…

On a different note, though; I graduated, and I couldn’t be more proud knowing that even through the toughest of times, I’ve made it. Regardless of the struggles, I persevered through and finished school. Another (small) benefit of graduating was that I needed to get a new outfit… It was a formal occasion, graduation gowns and everything. It was held in Melbourne’s Saint Patrick’s Cathedral, and the location itself was quite architecturally beautiful. There was a mass followed by a ceremony and although it was very long, at most times, it was engaging and felt very surreal – I still remember walking into my prep class for the first time!

As crazy as it sounds, I felt more stressed trying to find a last minute outfit for graduation than I do preparing for exams! I was quite set on getting a white skirt because I really wanted something to contrast the black compulsory gown. Here’s what I ended up with, wearing:

Top: Topshop

Skirt: Bardot

Shoes: Windsor Smith

Clutch: Equip

Lipstick: Chanel Rouge Allure Velvet, in 37 L’exubérante

Necklace: Tiffany & Co.

Watch: Vintage Seiko

Bracelet: Tiffany & Co.

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